Blah

I'm feeling very blah today. I'm so tired. My kids are driving me bleeping nuts. I can't wait for school to start! I hate feeling like this. I'm not enjoying them at all right now. It makes me very sad to feel this way. I just wish they would stop fighting so much. Thank goodness they are getting along at the moment. They are outside on the slip-n-slide. We'll see how long that lasts.

I have to get out of this funk. I want to have fun with my kids again. I don't want them to look back on their childhood and remember me as a crotchety old hag who was always yelling and rolling her eyes. What am I doing wrong?

The only time Jonah and I get along is when we are reading "Harry Potter." The minute I stop reading, we start fighting. He is constantly arguing with me and bossing Sadie around or tormenting her. This causes Sadie to scream at the top of her lungs which not only grates on my nerves but wakes up the baby. Then I am mad at all three of them.

I want to be a fun mommy. A good mommy. I don't want to yell. I love my kids, but some days I just want to run away and today is one of those days. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.